This is an extension of the last post, I suppose, although I certainly didn't intend it to be when I decided to ramble a little.

I am realizing more and more that I do not mean as much, matter as much, to some people as I think I should, or thought I did. I suppose that's a risk one runs with online friendships, especially when one doesn't really know how to interact with people and never really knows what to say. I thought it would be easier for some reason to not have to interact in person. Sometimes it is. Especially when things remain trivial and superficial. But I have a tendency to imagine connections that just aren't there.

For the most part it's nothing big, and I'm sure those in question don't realize how I feel. Mostly because of that bottom line. I'm a casual friend at best, and it doesn't seem to occur to them to think of me otherwise. And let's be honest - I am incapable of trusting them, of really letting them in, so it is probably, on the whole, for the best.